Thursday, May 27, 2010

Its a GIRL!

Preston has been convinced through out this LONG process that we where having a boy, and sense i didn't have a "mothers instinct" i just kinda went along with it.
The day i scheduled the ultrasound they gave me a paper to help me remember when it was(which i need) and a side note with instructions to do before the ultrasound, i didn't pay much attention to it until the night before the appointment. The side note basically said i had to drink over a liter of water in one hour and to not empty my bladder until after the appointment. Are you kidding me??? Holding my pee has never been something I'm good at, not to mention a baby inside sitting on your bladder, but I'm happy to report that i did it! After they looked at my organs and the baby's she said i could go release my self and then we would start looking for the sex. From that point on it was very surreal. it was so special to see her moving and seeing her ten fingers and ten toes, it was the best! Although Preston wanted a boy he is very excited to be having a little girl. He said he cant wait to start the daddy daughter relationship. I feel so blessed to be able to go through pregnancy and have one of gods children entrusted to me, such an overwhelming responsibility but one that i am ready to take on.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

16 weeks!

As most of you know I am Prego! 16 weeks prego at that! I wish i could say its been such a "beautiful experience" But the reality is.. it hasn't, its been anything thing but. Yes, i am thrilled to be able to be a mommy(weird!) Yes, i think its a miracle that two people can create a human being but seriously.. i haven't experienced the whole " its such a beautiful thing" feeling. It could be because im not normal, or it could be because the toilet was my best friend for three weeks, or it could be that ive had morning sickness(ALL day sickness) for 10 LONG weeks and counting, or it could be because i haven't felt the baby move yet, but none the less i haven't had that feeling. Now don't get me wrong like i said im thrilled that i am able to carry a child and its awesome and reassuring to hear the heartbeat and it really is a beautiful thing but i just haven't had that "love connection" yet. Maybe i should clarify... i would be devastated if something happened to this baby and i am protective but it takes time to get to know this little one which is why it will take time for the like to grow to love, but i know i will have that "love connection" and im looking forward to it! By the way we are finding out what the sex is on MAY 25. VERY exciting! Here is the belly at 16 weeks.
The day we found our we where expecting.


Going home couldn't have happened at a better time. I REALLY needed to go home. You know the feeling of just needing your mom/family? There really is no place like home. I love smelling the mountain air. I love knowing that where ever i need to go, i know how to get there(without the GPS) I love walking into the house i grew up in, the smells, the memories. like i said there's no place like home.

We had so much fun in Utah. The first of our activities was Paigelyns baby blessing. it was so great that the whole family was gathered together for such a special occasion. I've never really thought much of baby blessings, but it really is such a special thing. Her dad gave a beautiful blessing, it seemed perfect for little Paigelyn.

After that there wasn't a whole lot going on. Which is the way i prefer it! the days where filled with eating, laughing, seeing best friends, talking with my mama on her comfy bed(why is it that parents bed are always more comfy then your own? no matter what) and just enjoying all my family members! Im so thankful i have such a fantastic family!